i am trying not to isolate .. to get out of my head and go do something with someone other than those closest to me… I want to have a life beyond my front door.. But my MIND keeps telling me, no one wants to know you, who do you think you are??? You are the one that does not do the thing that people want to hear about.. you are the one that .. sat around and drank and used and did these horrible things… who will listen to you… you big DUMMY, WHO??? Then the Bars come down across my mind like the Largest Prison on earth… HELP ME PLEASE….. I am CONVICTED of a CRIME I did not COMMIT… then I realize I am in paralyzing FEAR… BREATHE, BREATHE!!!… It is Just the Front DOOR…..!!!