This Too Shall Pass

Chaos? Drama? Yes! No! Wait…ugh! Chaos and drama have been a part of my life since before I can remember. If I wasn’t the one causing it (which I usually was or at least had a part in), it seemed to always be around me. When I first got into the program and tried to get sober, it seemed that as soon as things were calm in my life I would self-sabotage and all hell would break loose again. It was as if I wanted the peace and serenity, but didn’t quite know how to function once I had it. Today holds a very different story for me thanks to my Higher Power whom I choose to call God, my 12 step program, and the support I have around me. As I type this there is chaos around me once again. My home has been disrupted by others, my dad is very ill, I have just started e-learning with my children due to COVID, my brother is back out using, and to top it all off I am trying to save my marriage and keep my family whole. In the midst of all this, I must remember that “this too shall pass.” Not only do I not need to create drama any longer, but I am comfortable in my own skin and in the peace that God has brought to my mind. When my disease tries to mess with me I have no qualms about praying, meditating, picking up the phone to call my sponsor or anyone else, or getting my butt to a meeting. I am ever so thankful to God and my program that I can still find peace and serenity when life seems chaotic or overwhelming.