Chaos? Drama? Yes! No! Wait…ugh! Chaos and drama have been a part of my life since before I can remember. If I wasn’t the one causing it (which I usually was or at least had a part in), it seemed to always be around me. When I first got into the program and tried to get sober, it seemed that as soon as things were calm in my life I would self-sabotage and all hell would break loose again. It was as if I wanted the peace and serenity, but didn’t quite know how to function once I had it.