But when we are drinking, it is only numb for a moment in time… Then we come to,,, and the Guilt and Shame of that last DRINK seep through us like a COLD RIVER… If your anything like me, I have to start checking who I called. Trying to remember what I MIGHT have said??? Who I might have SEEN??? What I MIGHT have DONE??? Because my life as an ALCOHOLIC was and can be again, A LIFE IN UTTER TURMOIL and CHAOS!!! ALCOHOL robbed me BLINDLY of my MONEY, FAMILY, FRIENDS and above all MY LIFE !!! I lived in Shattering FEAR after every binder… SO , YEAH IT CAN BE ROUGH, But I choose to RECOVER from my ALCOHOLISM TODAY !!! I TREAT my Alcoholism as if I had CANCER>>> I work a diligent program of the 12 STEPS of Alcoholics Anonymous with a SPONSOR who is in the BIG BOOK… I go to AA MEETINGS very REGULARLY… I get PHONE LISTS from those people, I FELLOWSHIP ( Participate in fun things, coffee, dinners, activities) with other members at those meetings… I share when things are ROUGH… I pick up a PHONE and call BEFORE I DRINK or DRUG. and above all else ( I ASK A POWER GREATER THAN MYSELF TO HELP ME STAY SOBER ALL THROUGH MY DAY).. It is my LIFE TODAY… If I DON’T SAVE IT, who else will… IT WORKS , IT REALLY DOES ,,, DON’T GIVE UP BEFORE THE MIRACLES HAPPEN…